Saturday, May 31, 2008
my love ; SME ! <3yesterday (300508) was SME'S 15th AGM.
and this just marks the official stepping down for all seniors.
sme is now being passed over to our dear juniors.
continue bringing sme to greater heights and don't disappoint us alright ?
anyway, my speech last night was quite a short one compared to people like farhan (who basically over-ran the whole thing).
my initial plan was to give a long and emo speech.
however, changed my mind about it because i was afraid that i wasn't able to control my tears.
my tears, however, was still on the verge of flowing down but i tried holding it back.
if i could, i really wanted to say everything which i intended to.
nonetheless, the main points of my speech were being brought across.
our long talk with the new committee last for over 4 hours.
started around 8 plus and ended at 11.30PM !
didn't expect it to drag until that long.
after that took many pictures and finally left school at 12AM !
after that a few of us headed to E! Hub.
wanted to go bowling, but then we realised that the whole place was fully booked and there were 51 people infront of us on the waiting list !
all of us weren't able to believe it.
it just seemed that everyone was out bowling that night -.-
left our names down and went over to downtown east's macdonalds for our dinner/supper.
our usual chit-chatting and gossiping session turned into a laughing session with jhon blaberring about he and his swimming.
and he was also counting down to his ORD day !
there'll always be countless of laughter with jhon around.
i'll miss him and all his jokes ! =(
went back to the bowling alley at 2 plus and luckily for us they had available lanes.
as expected, larry was the overall winner.
2nd was weng.
bowled until they closed and sent jhon, larry and weng off.
farhan, shan, sy and i wanted to carry on our chit-chatting/gossiping session by taking a stroll to the interchange and wait for the first bus.
unfortuantely, not long after sending them off, it started to rain.
and so, we're left with no choice but to head home.
such a spoiler.
alright, thats all i have for this entry.
now for the many photos i have on hand from the AGM.
take your time to enjoy them.
a little something i made for the committee of AY07/08
my 'couple' of the day :P
informal photo shot
komez, fyrhto, accion, venos but no phantos
look at all their happy faces with the yummy brownie
i'm happy too !
and this just marks the official stepping down for all seniors.
sme is now being passed over to our dear juniors.
continue bringing sme to greater heights and don't disappoint us alright ?
anyway, my speech last night was quite a short one compared to people like farhan (who basically over-ran the whole thing).
my initial plan was to give a long and emo speech.
however, changed my mind about it because i was afraid that i wasn't able to control my tears.
my tears, however, was still on the verge of flowing down but i tried holding it back.
if i could, i really wanted to say everything which i intended to.
nonetheless, the main points of my speech were being brought across.
our long talk with the new committee last for over 4 hours.
started around 8 plus and ended at 11.30PM !
didn't expect it to drag until that long.
after that took many pictures and finally left school at 12AM !
after that a few of us headed to E! Hub.
wanted to go bowling, but then we realised that the whole place was fully booked and there were 51 people infront of us on the waiting list !
all of us weren't able to believe it.
it just seemed that everyone was out bowling that night -.-
left our names down and went over to downtown east's macdonalds for our dinner/supper.
our usual chit-chatting and gossiping session turned into a laughing session with jhon blaberring about he and his swimming.
and he was also counting down to his ORD day !
there'll always be countless of laughter with jhon around.
i'll miss him and all his jokes ! =(
went back to the bowling alley at 2 plus and luckily for us they had available lanes.
as expected, larry was the overall winner.
2nd was weng.
bowled until they closed and sent jhon, larry and weng off.
farhan, shan, sy and i wanted to carry on our chit-chatting/gossiping session by taking a stroll to the interchange and wait for the first bus.
unfortuantely, not long after sending them off, it started to rain.
and so, we're left with no choice but to head home.
such a spoiler.
alright, thats all i have for this entry.
now for the many photos i have on hand from the AGM.
take your time to enjoy them.
CIAOS !
(:
a little something i made for the committee of AY07/08
my gino and jeremy's pungu
my 'couple' of the day :P
smelly mushroom ! =X 
you'll only get to see this flag annually ! rare chance to take a picture with it.
receiving my certificate of appreciation from mr andy kwek
passing over ceremony
informal photo shot
committee of AY08/09
you can't find another lucky advisor like him
and the 'thorns' of sme. haha
my lovely committee of AY07/08
true friendship never dies (:
going crazy
thankew for attending, my dear seniors
my successor !
up in the air ~
komez, fyrhto, accion, venos but no phantos
with the new committee of e2
wenggg !
look at all their happy faces with the yummy brownie
i'm happy too !
last but not least;
one whole big family of SME ! *LOVES
to all my dear friends;
the memories all of us shared over these 2 years isn't something which could be easily forgotten. it is something so precious and priceless. however, don't let these memories just stop here. continue to let them flow with our frequent meet-ups alright ? to the guys who are enlisting soon, no worries, we'll definitely not forget to include you for our outings during the weekends. finally, the bottom line is that, i will not forget every single one of you ! HUGS (:
a quote for all of you :
"A person is only complete when he/she has a true friend to understand him/her, to share all his/her passions and sorrows with, and to stand by him/her throughout his/her life."
GET UP! ;
9:31 PM;
9:31 PM;
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
when i'm with you =dFaber Drive - When I'm With You
Saw you walk in to the room,
Thought I'd try to talk to you
Babe, am I ever glad you wanted me to
It's been two years to the day half the time
I've been away
I know I'm not there enough,
but that's gonna change
'cause I'm coming back to show you that
I'm keeping the promise i made
When I'm with you
I'll make every second count
'cause I miss you
whenever you're not around
when I kiss you
I still get butterflies years from now,
I'll make every second count
when I'm with you
Yeah, we've had our ups and downs,
but we've always worked 'em out
Babe, am I ever glad we got this far now
Still I'm lying here tonight
wishing I was by your side
'cause when I'm not there enough, nothing feels right
so I'm coming back to show you
that I'll love you the rest of my life
When I'm with you,
I'll make every second count
'cause I miss you,
whenever your not around
When I kiss you,
I still get butterflies years from now
I'll make every second count when I'm with you
Whatever it takes
I'm not gonna break the promise I made
When I'm with you,
I'll make every second count
'cause i miss you
Yeah
When I'm with you,
I'll make every second count
'cause I miss you,
whenever your not around
When I kiss you,
I still get butterflies years from now
I'll make every second count
When I'm with you
a great song !
its the current song i'm addicted to.
the music video is kinda sad.
somehow it just links back to my previous post on 'treasure before losing it'.
ohh, and not forgetting the lyrics of this songs are lovely written.
it just explains what i have to say to you.
(:
what lies ahead is obvioulsy very unclear.
i just want to hold on and cherish what is present now.
don't disappoint me.
Saw you walk in to the room,
Thought I'd try to talk to you
Babe, am I ever glad you wanted me to
It's been two years to the day half the time
I've been away
I know I'm not there enough,
but that's gonna change
'cause I'm coming back to show you that
I'm keeping the promise i made
When I'm with you
I'll make every second count
'cause I miss you
whenever you're not around
when I kiss you
I still get butterflies years from now,
I'll make every second count
when I'm with you
Yeah, we've had our ups and downs,
but we've always worked 'em out
Babe, am I ever glad we got this far now
Still I'm lying here tonight
wishing I was by your side
'cause when I'm not there enough, nothing feels right
so I'm coming back to show you
that I'll love you the rest of my life
When I'm with you,
I'll make every second count
'cause I miss you,
whenever your not around
When I kiss you,
I still get butterflies years from now
I'll make every second count when I'm with you
Whatever it takes
I'm not gonna break the promise I made
When I'm with you,
I'll make every second count
'cause i miss you
Yeah
When I'm with you,
I'll make every second count
'cause I miss you,
whenever your not around
When I kiss you,
I still get butterflies years from now
I'll make every second count
When I'm with you
a great song !
its the current song i'm addicted to.
the music video is kinda sad.
somehow it just links back to my previous post on 'treasure before losing it'.
ohh, and not forgetting the lyrics of this songs are lovely written.
it just explains what i have to say to you.
(:
what lies ahead is obvioulsy very unclear.
i just want to hold on and cherish what is present now.
don't disappoint me.
GET UP! ;
11:58 PM;
11:58 PM;
Sunday, May 25, 2008
treasure and love before losing
nobody knows what the future has for us.
but one thing we are sure of is the present.
the present should be something that we ought to cherish.
if you have something to do/accomplish, do them.
if you have feelings to express to a person, let them know.
if you want to do something but you keep holding yourself back, hesitate no more.
no matter what is it, just do what you have and want to do.
for the future is really unpredictable.
if you keep holding yourself back onto something, you may not not have the chance to do/say what you want the very next day.
treasure everything and everybody around you.
do not take for granted the fact that the same person will be there beside you the next minute.
in short, live your life to the fullest and most importantly...
live with NO regrets at all !
by the time you start to regret, things might be too late for a turn.
before its too late, do whatever you have and need to do.
keep reminding your loved ones how much love you have for them.
be it your family, your friends or your boyfriends/girlfriends.
if you really love them, show it to them unconditionally.
on a lighter note, before everybody starts getting affected by me, here's something :
SME'S 15TH ANNUAL GENERAL MEETING !
WHOOO ! *claps claps*
Date: 30th May 2008 (this friday)
Time: 6PM
Venue: LT34
ALL are welcome to join us for this eventful moment.
we will definitely be more than happy to share this special occasion with everyone of you.
looking forward in seeing all of you there !
its back to school once again.
term test is around the corner.
i really have to pull up my socks.
6th june please approach quickly !
but on another hand, i don't want june to arrive.
very ironic !
oh well, signing off now.
GOODBYE !
=)
Lord, i pray for strength to fall upon all victims. give them the amount of hope they need to enable them to brace through this tough period of time. and also for the survivors, give them the willpower to face their lost and be back on foot once again for everyone is praying very hard for them. Amen.
GET UP! ;
5:32 PM;
5:32 PM;
Friday, May 23, 2008
mantud are the championss !and the champions for the Champions League goes to . . . .
MANCHESTER UNITED !
REJOICEEE !
i am so so proud of them.
though i was so on the verge of just going to my lala land, however i tried very hard to stay awake to catch them fight their way to champions.
and the match last night was simply thrilling.
everytime the ball got near the goal post i would immediately sit up and focus my attention on the screen.
manutd first lead the match with a great heading from RONALDO !
his 42nd goal in this memorable season.
then it was Lampard to score for chelsea.
and the whole match went onto 30 minutes of extra time with the score being tied at 1-1.
at that point i just hoped that someone would jsut score so that i could get my beauty sleep =X
however, it went onto the penalty shootout.
this was where the disappointment for ronaldo came in.
he missed his penalty !
and this is the 3rd penalty kick he missed.
but thank goodness John Terry missed his.
with the sudden death penalty shot being missed by Nicolas Anelka, manutd are decleared the champions.
to make it even better, this is their 2nd trophy ever since they won the English Premier League !
wow, i must have been sounding like a commendator.
but who cares, i feel very happy for them.
they had done their best and their hard works had been paid off by receiving their very-well deserved trophies and holding the title !
GREAT ACCOMPLISHMENT DUDES !
his 42nd goal of the season !
MANCHESTER UNITED !
REJOICEEE !
i am so so proud of them.
though i was so on the verge of just going to my lala land, however i tried very hard to stay awake to catch them fight their way to champions.
and the match last night was simply thrilling.
everytime the ball got near the goal post i would immediately sit up and focus my attention on the screen.
manutd first lead the match with a great heading from RONALDO !
his 42nd goal in this memorable season.
then it was Lampard to score for chelsea.
and the whole match went onto 30 minutes of extra time with the score being tied at 1-1.
at that point i just hoped that someone would jsut score so that i could get my beauty sleep =X
however, it went onto the penalty shootout.
this was where the disappointment for ronaldo came in.
he missed his penalty !
and this is the 3rd penalty kick he missed.
but thank goodness John Terry missed his.
with the sudden death penalty shot being missed by Nicolas Anelka, manutd are decleared the champions.
to make it even better, this is their 2nd trophy ever since they won the English Premier League !
wow, i must have been sounding like a commendator.
but who cares, i feel very happy for them.
they had done their best and their hard works had been paid off by receiving their very-well deserved trophies and holding the title !
GREAT ACCOMPLISHMENT DUDES !
his 42nd goal of the season !WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS, WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS MY FRIENDS ! (:
GET UP! ;
1:18 AM;
1:18 AM;
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
its back once againthe feeling is creeping up in me once again.
the sight of the whole thing just makes me lose my emotions.
how i really wish i could just walk away and aviod it.
i am not that strong enough as to put up a fake front always.
neither do i wish to dampen everything.
by staying will leave me feeling lost and crushed.
by leaving will make me feel that i'm just being emotional.
but i really hope that i could have this last opportunity.
am i letting my emotions take control of me ?
i'm trying my best to stop it, but i don't have the slightest idea on how to do so.
can somebody wake me up from all these ?
crap, this is actually quite a random post.
i shan't go on anymore.
let the pictures do the rest of the talking.
GOODBYE !
(:
wednesday (140508) :
is he lucky or what ? :P.jpg)
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the sight of the whole thing just makes me lose my emotions.
how i really wish i could just walk away and aviod it.
i am not that strong enough as to put up a fake front always.
neither do i wish to dampen everything.
by staying will leave me feeling lost and crushed.
by leaving will make me feel that i'm just being emotional.
but i really hope that i could have this last opportunity.
am i letting my emotions take control of me ?
i'm trying my best to stop it, but i don't have the slightest idea on how to do so.
can somebody wake me up from all these ?
crap, this is actually quite a random post.
i shan't go on anymore.
let the pictures do the rest of the talking.
GOODBYE !
(:
wednesday (140508) :
is he lucky or what ? :P
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FC 1
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FC 2
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FC LOVES (:
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our cute president and QM
don't their jackets look superb ?
saturday (170508) :
girlfriends for life (:.JPG)
i'm reserved ! =X
all together
2 retards. HAHA
YEOWSHENG !
my dearest seniors =)
* no comments *
my awfully sinful supper
let this be a new start of everything.
move on and look ahead.
but, i need the confidence to.
GET UP! ;
10:42 PM;
10:42 PM;
Sunday, May 18, 2008
disappointment is all i can sayi must be crazy.
changing my blog skin within 2 days !
the previous blog skin kinda cannot make it and just nice i found this pretty one.
so ya, decided to change.
how heartwrenching it would be to see something which you are so attached to just sink right infront of your eyes.
after all the effort you had put in, now theres nothing you can do but to watch it collapse before you.
its not about regretting the decision made.
the main thing is about how people change.
when they want to achieve something, they can be so damn good to you.
saying things which make you think that you are the best.
but once their motive is attained, instead of being thankful to you, they treat you like dirt instead.
one day is more than enough to change a person.
the amount of disappointment is indescribable.
to make things worse, you have to face it everyday.
its a great chore when it comes to facing it.
as much as i wish i can just wash my hands of it, but i can't.
a part of me has already given up hope, but a bigger part of me is still clinging onto it.
i'm so lost at what should i do.
by letting go means i'm letting go of something extremely dear to me.
i'm very affected by this.
=(
okay, another post of me ranting.
apologizes to my readers that you all have to hear me whine.
oh well, something to be happy of.
no school on monday this week !
finally a week which makes me look forward to.
HAHA
TILL THEN !
(:
are all these just my illusions ?
why can't i seem to feel the real-ness in them ?
changing my blog skin within 2 days !
the previous blog skin kinda cannot make it and just nice i found this pretty one.
so ya, decided to change.
how heartwrenching it would be to see something which you are so attached to just sink right infront of your eyes.
after all the effort you had put in, now theres nothing you can do but to watch it collapse before you.
its not about regretting the decision made.
the main thing is about how people change.
when they want to achieve something, they can be so damn good to you.
saying things which make you think that you are the best.
but once their motive is attained, instead of being thankful to you, they treat you like dirt instead.
one day is more than enough to change a person.
the amount of disappointment is indescribable.
to make things worse, you have to face it everyday.
its a great chore when it comes to facing it.
as much as i wish i can just wash my hands of it, but i can't.
a part of me has already given up hope, but a bigger part of me is still clinging onto it.
i'm so lost at what should i do.
by letting go means i'm letting go of something extremely dear to me.
i'm very affected by this.
=(
okay, another post of me ranting.
apologizes to my readers that you all have to hear me whine.
oh well, something to be happy of.
no school on monday this week !
finally a week which makes me look forward to.
HAHA
TILL THEN !
(:
are all these just my illusions ?
why can't i seem to feel the real-ness in them ?
GET UP! ;
11:35 PM;
11:35 PM;
Saturday, May 17, 2008
contradiction ?!
finally i have the time to blog.
and after many tries, i managed to change my blog skin and edited a few parts of it.
have been busy rushing out my report and preparing for the quizes over the week.
what a hectic week.
seriously, i think i desperately need to go shopping real soon.
my wardrobe looks dead and outdated.
walking along bugis street this afternoon really made my heart itch like mad !
everything looked so tempting to me.
but i had to bring myself to resist that tempation.
money please come rolling in to me !
after the window shopping was deciding on where to settle for dinner.
we had a super hard time deciding.
and we took quite a long time to deicide.
finally decided to dine at sakae sushi.
many funny things happened over dinner.
kept on laughing and laughing.
after the filling dinner, we walked around aimlessly around bugis thinking of what to do next.
but we couldn't think of anything better to do so decided to head home.
alrights, thats all for today's entry.
shall post up the pictures from kaiwen, baoming and mel ho's birthday celebration.
yes, they are outdated i know.
but better late than never !
CIAOS !
(:
pizza feast
the 2 cakes
happy birthday !
awww, don't they look so sweet ?!
with the birthday boy
i was being dragged into the gents !
UNGLAM 
oopss oopss
presenting kw's present
followed by baoming
and mel ho
birthday peeps (:
lovely
sme and e2 !
meet my new friend
=)
cute and nice picture
bamboo ar bamboo
yongtian
peng cheng
bernie
the birthday girl
jingyao
the things you say and your actions just don't coincide.
which is true ?i can no longer believe in myself.
GET UP! ;
12:05 AM;
12:05 AM;
Sunday, May 11, 2008
what is this ?!
back from ying jian's birthday celebration.
it was actually a birthday celebration cum gathering.
managed to catch up with many seniors whom i have not seen for EONS.
and also some other friends whom we seldom meet up with.
well, had quite a difficult time finding the chalet.
first and foremost, all of us were first timers going to the chalet at Aloha Changi.
we walked all the way to the top, as instructed by yj.
and still wasn't able to find the chalet.
he told us that the unit was B.and we actually just walked past this particular chalet B.
we stood outside trying to guess whether was it that chalet.
but in the end we self-concluded that it wasn't because the whole chalet was too quiet and it looked very dark inside.
after confirming the location of the chalet, true enough that was the correct one.
we felt like some blur fellas.
prepared and design his birthday 'card' whereby we got everybody to write on a shirt.
after that was dinner.
sat around to eat and we talked ALOT !
really managed to catch up with alot of seniors especially bernie and amos a.k.a mr.chatterbox !
didn't stay over in the end.
left together with yongtian.
thank you so so much for the lift (:
going to stop here for today's entry.
i've got tons of pictures to upload.
ENJOY THEM !
=)
the reds ! (:
birthday eggs
another name for frog is .. ?
happy 21st (:
lao le !
make a wish .. 
officially joined the 'club' ! whoo
look how lousy the bed is.
红禄灯
long time no see !
niceee !
the lovely seniors
coincidentally, all 3 of them are 3 years apart !
the may babies whom made that hole in my wallet ! =(
the star of the night =)
cool shot !
ben looks spastic ! =X
sme's birthday 'card'
FRAGILE !
so this is the fragile present - front view
back view
the 3rd present
trying hard to take a peek
act yi ge, as usual =X
fantastic pair of shoes !
and there he goes acting cute. haha
yums
i love the colour of this bottle
gracie (:
TEK KO ! 
lex =)
he and his don't know-what-face
cannonz (:
i want to just continue sleeping.
and let this wonderful dream keep going on.
please don't wake me up from this
GET UP! ;
9:40 PM;
9:40 PM;
Friday, May 09, 2008
a short post (:well oh well, this is going to be a super short post.
i'm here just to send my wishes to the following people.
HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY MR. YING JIAN !
a very warm welcome to you on joining our 'club' !
being the president, i am so happy to see more of you coming in slowly.
HAHA
alrights, back to the main point.
do have fun and enjoy this very special once-in-a-lifetime moment of yours meaningfully.
we'll make sure you get all the 'FUN' !
congrats on entering the ADULTHOOD ! (:
HAPPY _ _ TH BIRTHDAY MS. MELISSA HO !
as they always say, a woman's age is a secret.
so aren't you glad that i didn't reveal your age my dear ?
HEHE
anyway as mentioned in the message, please refrain from bitting me anymore alright.
i know i'm nice but there's other ways to appreciate me yea ?
haha.
hope you'll have a great a blessed day today sweetie ! (:
and last but not least,
HAPPY BELATED 23RD BIRTHDAY MR. AMOS GOH !
i guess my wishes for you are weird huh.
one moment it was early but now its a belated wish.
nonetheless, all the very best in your future endeavor.
its been quite sometime since you met up with all of us.
do join us more often alright ?!
all of us miss your talking !
HAHA
hope to do some catching up with you during chalet.
meanwhile, take good cares (:
okie dookie, i'm done with this post already.
GOODNIGHTS !
=)
i'm here just to send my wishes to the following people.
HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY MR. YING JIAN !
a very warm welcome to you on joining our 'club' !
being the president, i am so happy to see more of you coming in slowly.
HAHA
alrights, back to the main point.
do have fun and enjoy this very special once-in-a-lifetime moment of yours meaningfully.
we'll make sure you get all the 'FUN' !
congrats on entering the ADULTHOOD ! (:
HAPPY _ _ TH BIRTHDAY MS. MELISSA HO !
as they always say, a woman's age is a secret.
so aren't you glad that i didn't reveal your age my dear ?
HEHE
anyway as mentioned in the message, please refrain from bitting me anymore alright.
i know i'm nice but there's other ways to appreciate me yea ?
haha.
hope you'll have a great a blessed day today sweetie ! (:
and last but not least,
HAPPY BELATED 23RD BIRTHDAY MR. AMOS GOH !
i guess my wishes for you are weird huh.
one moment it was early but now its a belated wish.
nonetheless, all the very best in your future endeavor.
its been quite sometime since you met up with all of us.
do join us more often alright ?!
all of us miss your talking !
HAHA
hope to do some catching up with you during chalet.
meanwhile, take good cares (:
okie dookie, i'm done with this post already.
GOODNIGHTS !
=)
GET UP! ;
2:16 AM;
2:16 AM;
Wednesday, May 07, 2008
unacceptable truthif you have no choice but to accept something which is a fact, what would you do ?
would you brace yourself up, despite how unwilling you are, and try to enable yourself to face the truth ?
well, i'm definately not as strong as to 'force' myself to accept this unbearable truth.
it wasn't as easy as i thought.
initially i thought that i could be able to pick myself up and learn to come into terms with it.
but apparently, i was just living in self-denial.
it has been quite a number of months since it happened already.
day after day, i keep telling myself to just forget and not to remind myself about it anymore.
as usual, its always easier said than done.
saying has it : " the truth always hurts"
i can't help but to agree to this sentence.
its true that the truth will always hurt no matter what situation you are facing.
i can be smiling and laughing like some crazy fella infront of everybody.
but behind those smiles and laughter are nothing but pain/tears.
nobody can ever understand how hard is it having to go through such agony.
and it isn't as easy as what you all may think.
just by thinking positive isn't enough.
god knows when will i ever be able to pull through these.
but it will definately not be in the near future.
or probably half a year later i'll be able to regain my old self back ?
who knows.
and this certainly brings your self-esteem and moral all the way down to ZERO !
i have no idea at all how am i going to survive this.
BUT by hook or cook i need and have to.
"i really want this darkest period of my life to pass by real fast. please remove all of the unwanted thoughts in me as soon as possible and let me be refreshed once again, Lord."
alright, i shan't keep ranting on anymore.
on a lighter note, celebrated kaiwen, baoming and mel ho's birthday in school earlier on.
we finally had a BIG gathering with everyone after DECADES !
so glad to see many seniors whom have M.I.A-ED since don't know when.
oh well, pictures will be up real soon.
stay tuned !
and ya, i'm gonna stop here today.
CIAOS (:
when will things be the same again ?
would you brace yourself up, despite how unwilling you are, and try to enable yourself to face the truth ?
well, i'm definately not as strong as to 'force' myself to accept this unbearable truth.
it wasn't as easy as i thought.
initially i thought that i could be able to pick myself up and learn to come into terms with it.
but apparently, i was just living in self-denial.
it has been quite a number of months since it happened already.
day after day, i keep telling myself to just forget and not to remind myself about it anymore.
as usual, its always easier said than done.
saying has it : " the truth always hurts"
i can't help but to agree to this sentence.
its true that the truth will always hurt no matter what situation you are facing.
i can be smiling and laughing like some crazy fella infront of everybody.
but behind those smiles and laughter are nothing but pain/tears.
nobody can ever understand how hard is it having to go through such agony.
and it isn't as easy as what you all may think.
just by thinking positive isn't enough.
god knows when will i ever be able to pull through these.
but it will definately not be in the near future.
or probably half a year later i'll be able to regain my old self back ?
who knows.
and this certainly brings your self-esteem and moral all the way down to ZERO !
i have no idea at all how am i going to survive this.
BUT by hook or cook i need and have to.
"i really want this darkest period of my life to pass by real fast. please remove all of the unwanted thoughts in me as soon as possible and let me be refreshed once again, Lord."
alright, i shan't keep ranting on anymore.
on a lighter note, celebrated kaiwen, baoming and mel ho's birthday in school earlier on.
we finally had a BIG gathering with everyone after DECADES !
so glad to see many seniors whom have M.I.A-ED since don't know when.
oh well, pictures will be up real soon.
stay tuned !
and ya, i'm gonna stop here today.
CIAOS (:
when will things be the same again ?
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11:59 PM;
HURRAYS !
i just installed msn plus and the latest version of windows live messenger into my com.
and it seriously looks superbly nice.
the features of msn plus are so cool !
okay, i must be sounding like some 'mountain tortise'.
but well, i'm happy with it (:
finally went back to work yesterday.
after not working for like a month plus, that kind of feeling is indeed weird.
coincidentally, one of my secondary school friend is also working under the same company as me and is also doing the same brand.
it was her first day at work.
somehow i also felt that it was my first day.
i was at a loss on what was i supposed to do and i had to remember all the pricing once again.
gotta get my motivation back to work.
simply because i can forsee myself being broke by the end of may.
with the amount of my friends being MAY BABIES !
5 to be exact.
and all their birthdays are either on the same day or just a day or two apart.
so should i say that it is their fortune ?
HAHA
i am a great procrastinator.
or probably plain LAZY would be a more proper word.
have been telling myself to finish reading up my book but until now i'm still stuck at the same page.
and i was supposed to do something tonight, but i have yet to start doing it.
can somebody shake me hard and get me to wake up my idea ?!
i just wished that i wasn't like this.
then i could probably accomplish more things.
i've really gotta set my determination right !
TIME TO WAKE UP SANDRA TAN !
know what ?
its wednesday already !
I LOVE WEDNESDAYS !
they are the best days of my week, excluding friday and weekends.
right, and i'm done with this uber random post of mine.
TILL THEN (:
HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY KAIWEN AND BAO MING ! (:
i wish upon a star.
that dreams do come true.
and turn into the reality which i have always longed for.
GET UP! ;
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12:07 AM;
Sunday, May 04, 2008
if your heart is always searching ...
29th April (Tuesday) :
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dinner-ed with FC at our usual coffee shop.
as usual, we were not able to focus on talking on a specific topic.
it would always get drifted off to another point.
especially with our dear president and vice-presidents.
HAHA
after dinner and much crapping, we decided to go and catch a movie.
xavier suggested watching Harold and Kuamr because its a comedy.
so ya, all of us agreed and went to watch it.
only to find out that the rating is M18.
and we only realised it when the movie started.
the whole movie is basically more towards a sexual referrence kind of movie.
basically its almost similar to The 40 Year Old Virgin !
lesson learnt, in future any movie xavier suggests we will all make sure that we check out the sypnosis of the show first.
HAHA
our first movie outing (:
2nd May (Friday) :
HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY GER !
met up with steven and ben chou and headed to town to buy ger's present.
had a hard time on deciding what to get.
and the person who knew her well enough wasn't able to join us therefore we had to pick what we thought that might suit her.
in the end, we got a jacket from FCUK.
then headed to Hougang to meet the rest.
saw quite a number of people at the interchange and all of us boarded the bus together.
basically the whole bus was just filled with our voices and laughters.
ate, sat around to crap and cam whored before cutting the cake.
after everything we decided to head to Fashion Bar.
as it was almost 11.30pm, we had to try our luck by rushing to the mrt station to catch the last train.
we ran from the interchange to the met station.
but the last train had already departed 2 minutes ago =(
our last resort was to take bus to toa payoh and cab down to Clarke Quay.
the whole place was so crowded and we had to wait for half an hour before we could get a table.
when we finally got the table, we ordered Hennesy and Absolut.
but i was a good girl that night.
i did not drink due to the probbing headache i was having.
played finger guessing game and chinaman until it was time for them to close.
and guess what, the fittest amongst all was the first to be down !
all of us weren't able to believe that he can't hold his alcohol well.
so much for being our 'Metal Man'
HAHA
both our shirts looked the same
the gay-ish main comm
the cha borhs
friendship
happy 19th ger (:
the lovely jacket from FCUK
yoyo !
fashion bar
smiles oh smiles
3rd May (Saturday) :
went up on the latest attraction now, the Singapore Flyer.
its really an experience.
the view from up above is simply breathtaking.
but i believe the view would be much nicer during night time.
although you won't be able to see much during that time but the city lights of singapore ain't that bad afterall (:
the whole ride took approximately half an hour.
and believe me, it really moves super slowly.
from afar, the capsule really looks small.
the first time i saw it i can't believe that it was able to accomodate 30 pax.
but now, seeing is believing.
headed to marina square for dinner after the ride.
settled at this japanese restaurant called M.O.F (Ministry of Food).
the food there is just so-so only.
they are more famous for their deserts i presume.
caught Ironman after that.
it wasn't as bad as i thought.
the movie effects were superb.
and the way they made the machines move and so on were fantastic.
one thing to note, theres a small ending at the end of ALL the credits.
so do stay on and wait VERY patiently until the credits end.
WARNING : its a real long wait !
really thankew so so much for the wonderful day my dear ! HUGS to you (:
the entry pass
the future F1 track ! whooo
view from the highest point :)
see the field 'floating' on waters !
in the capsule
lovely view
yummy hokkaido macha ice cream
alright, i'm ending off here for now.
the weekend is coming to an end and monday is right at the door step.
i dread my mondays alot. please make this past by fast !
CIAOS PEEPS (:
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